So I went to a family dinner last night that included my aunt who is cat crazy and has owned more cats than the local cat lady. I told her about finding Pepper's collar in the mailbox, and apparently that is code for "I accidentally ran your cat over and killed her but I buried her so you can stop trying to find her."
................... I'm not the only one on DA who has lost a cat. I'm not the first and not the last. But trust me when I say this. This pain of loss is almost crippling. And we all have felt it. Some more than others some less. Right now I am lost. I can't hold my baby to me. I can't even go to her grave. I have no closure to speak of. I have the family home with four cats in it that are not my baby girl. None of them sound right. None of them feel right. None of them weigh right. None of them act right. Hell, none of them bathe themselves right.
.......I'm just................ I should get back to work.............
I want my baby back.